Wednesday, June 08, 2005
ok..im in a BIG dilemma..how?! haix..mon gt class BBQ den i wan 2 go..but den tue i oso wanna go out wif him..!! haix.. but if mon i gg.. parents sure wun let mi go on tue.. but den again even if mon i dun go..i say go wif him..they might not let mi go oso..haix..!! im so stress.. how come i cant haf freedom?! every1 told mi aft o lvl they will gif mi..but den again..im trap..by my myself..a wall..sigh.. i cant say they dun gif mi freedom..they let mi go out wif frdx n all..but... haix.i dun noe how 2 put it into words..
back 2 e topic..i was tinkin say i gt 'chalet' fr mon-wed mornin..den both days i can go liao.. but i scared lata they wan come drop by how? haix..im dead..ask ppl 4 advice they dun noe how oso..haix..or shld i juz say tue gt BBQ but i doubt they will let mi stay over..haix..i feel like juz heck care..if get caught den explain..mayb tt time i can say my feelings out when im angry?! haix bt i oso scared 2 get into trouble..i guess tt's y im like tt now..haix..so trap n torn btwn..... im reali tired do you noe tt? u say u understand wat im gg thru..wat im gg thru is wat u all been thru..but den y do u still make mi go thru when u noe its pain?! y cant u all.... haix..i noe i dun put myself in their shoes... but... haix...im tired... im suffocatin... do u noe wat it feels like 2 noe tt my frdx r able 2 go out as n when they like n im.... haix... i noe i shldn't compare.. argh..!! is it when i rebel den i can get wat i wan?
can some1 tell mi wat 2 do?! im gg crazy..!!
thinking of you @ 7:03 PM
